Inactive in-Disguise

I’m still a coward I realized in some way. I planned and made preparations but in the end
I was so overwhelmed with failure and criticism that I dropped my entire intent.
The sad thing is its not even a something big or grand, just some trivial task
I think of doing once in a while. Why are so afraid? Why are you such a pussy?
To me the reason behind the task is the drive. I only have this ’reason’ to hold on to.
But yet I’m can’t muster the courage to act upon it. So what if it turns out bad or
Being declined…..you can always use this as a stepping stone for further propelling


Nomather how much the task sees me or grade , I still have to do it. Its like the a game’s
First level obstruction. Ahead I see many bonuses and items I can use to buck myself upBut if I can’t take out my heart to see whats in store for me, I’ll never make it pass the second level

bear with me

I still struggle to cope with my ‘lair’ after a long absence. Today is exactly a week after a first step in. The first few days were so horrible and not used to, after being acclimatized elsewhere for so long. I tried to burden myself by overburden myself with lots of task that needs to be done but the result doesn’t do much. I miss CG6ii lots, missed the freedom of free belief, long for the joyful times, plus all those memorable moments that only I know….and will be difficult to explain and expressed.
Yup those will remain part of me for a long long time. I hope you guys well in you years ahead.I believe God’s has its purpose by doing this. We are brought up to believe they will be revealed in time. Trust in Him with all your heart, remember to seek Him regularly.

Haha Little Brother Pui had changed tons when I first re-see him again. He is now so‘hot’ heheh , taller and ‘deadlier’. Grandma became darker. Mom and dad still look the same and in remarkably good shape…not surpringly.